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Chapter 8— When You Finally Break

The door slammed shut behind Meher.

She had made it halfway down the corridor before she realized she was still holding the photograph so tightly that its edges had bent beneath her fingers.

October 19.

The seventh woman.

The promise Rudra had made seven years ago.

And the look on his face when he had seen that photograph.

He knew something.

Something terrible enough to turn the colour from his face.

Meher entered her room, locked the door, and placed the photograph on the dressing table.

For several minutes, she simply stared at it.

Then she picked up her father's old watch.

"Papa," she whispered, her voice already breaking. "What were you trying to tell me?"

The room offered no answer.

She opened the notebook again, searching through the pages with trembling fingers. There were dates, fragments of names, and little symbols she had never understood. Every clue led to another question. Every answer seemed to take something away from her.

Her father had died without clearing his name.

She had married the man whose testimony had helped destroy his life.

And now she was beginning to fear that the truth might be worse than anything she had imagined.

What if Rudra had known all along?

What if every moment she had almost trusted him had been nothing more than another mistake?

She pressed the notebook against her chest.

"I can't do this anymore," she whispered.

The first tear slipped down her cheek.

She wiped it away angrily.

Then another followed.

And suddenly, after weeks of swallowing her fear, controlling her anger, and pretending that nothing could break her, Meher couldn't hold it in any longer.

She sat on the floor beside the bed and began to cry.

Not quietly.

Not gracefully.

She cried for her father, for the years she had lost, for all the unanswered questions, and for the horrible possibility that the one person who had begun to understand her pain might be hiding the very truth she needed.

She covered her mouth, trying to silence herself.

But the sobs kept coming.

For once, Meher Ahuja had no sarcastic remark to protect herself with.

No sharp reply.

No wall strong enough to hide behind.

She was simply exhausted.

And she was alone.

Or so she thought.

---

Rudra had been standing outside her room for nearly ten minutes.

He had come to return the photograph she had dropped in the corridor, but he had stopped when he heard her crying.

At first, he thought he should leave.

Meher had made it painfully clear that she didn't want him near her.

But then he heard her whisper something through the door.

"Papa, please…"

Rudra closed his eyes.

He had heard men beg for mercy in courtrooms. He had watched powerful people crumble when their secrets were exposed.

None of it had prepared him for the sound of Meher trying to cry without letting anyone hear.

He knocked softly.

"Meher?"

The crying stopped.

Silence followed.

"Go away," she said.

Her voice was broken.

Rudra rested his forehead briefly against the door.

"I will, if that's what you want."

There was no answer.

"But before I go, I need you to know something."

"Please, Rudra."

The quiet desperation in those two words stopped him.

"Please don't."

He fell silent.

She wasn't angry with him now.

She sounded as though she had nothing left to fight with.

And somehow, that hurt more.

Rudra placed the photograph beside the door.

"I'm leaving this here. You don't have to open the door. You don't have to talk to me."

He waited.

Then he added, more quietly, "But you don't have to pretend you're fine either."

On the other side, Meher covered her face.

She hated him for being the reason she was hurting.

She hated herself for wanting him to stay.

And she hated that, even now, his voice was the only thing making the room feel a little less empty.

The lock clicked.

The door opened a few inches.

Rudra looked at her.

Her eyes were red. Her cheeks were wet, and she had wrapped her arms around herself as though she were trying to hold all her broken pieces together.

For a moment, he couldn't speak.

Meher immediately looked away.

"Don't look at me like that."

"Like what?"

"Like you feel sorry for me."

"I don't feel sorry for you."

She let out a small, bitter laugh. "Of course you don't."

"I respect you too much to pity you."

Her expression faltered.

Rudra remained where he was, careful not to move closer without permission.

"Can I come in?"

Meher hesitated.

Then she stepped aside.

---

Rudra entered the room and closed the door gently.

He noticed the open notebook on the floor, her father's watch in her hand, and the photograph on the dressing table.

He understood enough to know what had happened.

"You found something else," he said.

Meher nodded, looking down.

"And you think I know what it means."

She laughed weakly.

"Don't you?"

Rudra didn't answer quickly enough.

Her face crumpled.

"That's what I thought."

"Meher—"

"No." She wiped her cheeks, but fresh tears escaped. "You don't get to do that."

"Do what?"

"Say my name like you care about me, look at me like you want to protect me, and then keep lying to my face!"

Her voice broke on the last word.

Rudra stood motionless.

She turned away, ashamed of how badly she was shaking.

"I don't even know why I'm crying," she whispered. "I should be angry. I should be planning my next move. I should be trying to find the next clue."

She pressed her palms against her eyes.

"But I'm tired, Rudra. I'm so tired."

His expression softened.

Meher continued, the words spilling out before she could stop them.

"Everyone keeps telling me to be strong. My father was strong. He endured years of people calling him a murderer. He never stopped saying he was innocent. And I promised myself I would prove it."

She drew a shaky breath.

"But what if I can't?"

Rudra took one step toward her.

"What if I never find out what happened? What if he died believing I couldn't save his name?"

"You were his daughter," Rudra said quietly. "Not his lawyer. Not his judge. His daughter."

Meher looked at him through her tears.

"You don't understand."

"Then help me understand."

She shook her head.

"You had people around you after your mother died. People who could tell you what happened, even if they lied. I had letters from a prison. I had a father who kept telling me he would come home, until one day he didn't."

Her voice fell to a whisper.

"And I never got to say goodbye the way I wanted to."

Something tightened in Rudra's chest.

He had spent years avoiding his own grief, convincing himself that pain was a weakness he could outgrow.

Looking at Meher, he realized how cruel that belief had been.

She wasn't weak because she was crying.

She had been carrying more than anyone should have had to carry alone.

"I can't change what happened to your father," he said. "And I won't insult you by pretending I can fix everything tonight."

Meher looked away.

"But I can sit here with you," he continued. "If you'll let me."

Her lips trembled.

"Why?"

The question was barely audible.

Rudra held her gaze.

"Because you shouldn't have to face every terrible thing alone."

For several seconds, she said nothing.

Then her face crumpled again.

She tried to turn away, but a sob escaped her.

Rudra instinctively moved closer before stopping himself.

"Meher?"

She shook her head, unable to speak.

"Can I hold you?"

The question seemed to break through the last of her resistance.

She looked at him, tears slipping down her cheeks.

Then she nodded.

Rudra opened his arms.

Meher stepped into them.

The moment he wrapped his arms around her, she broke down completely.

She buried her face against his chest and gripped the fabric of his shirt, crying as though she had finally found somewhere she didn't need to be brave.

Rudra held her carefully.

One hand rested between her shoulder blades; the other settled gently against the back of her head.

He didn't tell her to stop crying.

He didn't tell her to calm down.

He simply held her.

"I'm here," he murmured.

Meher clutched his shirt more tightly.

"I'm here, Meher."

Her shoulders shook against him.

"I'm so tired," she whispered.

"I know."

"No, you don't."

"You're right." His voice was low and honest. "I don't know exactly what it feels like to be you. But I'm listening."

For some reason, that made her cry harder.

Rudra held her a little closer, letting her take the time she needed.

When she finally spoke again, her words were muffled against his chest.

"What if you're the person I'm supposed to be afraid of?"

Rudra went still.

There it was.

The question he had been dreading.

He could have lied.

He could have offered her an easy promise, told her that he would never hurt her, that he had nothing to hide.

But she had already suffered enough because of other people's lies.

So he answered honestly.

"Then I'll have to give you a reason to believe that you don't need to be."

Meher lifted her face.

Their eyes met.

"That's not a promise."

"No," he admitted. "It's something I'll have to prove."

She searched his expression, perhaps looking for the coldness she had grown used to, perhaps hoping she wouldn't find it.

"And if the truth points to you?"

Rudra swallowed.

"Then I won't ask you to protect me from it."

For the first time, Meher saw no anger in his eyes.

Only pain.

And something that looked frighteningly like fear—not of the truth itself, but of what it might do to whatever was beginning to grow between them.

Her fingers slowly loosened against his shirt.

"I'm still angry with you," she whispered.

"I know."

"I don't trust you."

"I know that too."

"And tomorrow, I might hate you again."

A faint, sad smile touched his face.

"Then I'll deal with tomorrow when it comes."

Despite herself, Meher let out a tiny, broken laugh.

It barely lasted a second.

But Rudra heard it.

And for that one second, the weight in his chest eased.

---

They sat on the floor beside the bed, Meher leaning against the headboard while Rudra sat beside her.

He had brought her a glass of water. She had taken it with both hands, and he waited until she had finished before setting it aside.

Neither spoke for a while.

For once, silence didn't feel like a weapon between them.

It felt like permission to breathe.

Meher eventually looked at him.

"Do you ever cry about your mother?"

Rudra's fingers tightened around his knee.

"Sometimes."

"Does anyone know?"

"No."

"Why?"

He stared at the opposite wall.

"Because everyone expected me to become the man of the family. My father was falling apart. Tara was a child. Dadi was trying to keep the estate from collapsing under the scandal."

He paused.

"And I thought if I let myself fall apart, there would be nothing left holding them together."

Meher studied him.

"So you decided not to feel anything."

"I decided not to show it."

"That's worse."

"I've noticed."

She gave him a tired look.

"Don't make jokes when I'm trying to have a serious conversation."

"You were the one who called me emotionally constipated yesterday."

"I was being generous."

A quiet laugh escaped him.

Meher stared at him in surprise.

It was the first time she had heard him laugh without bitterness or sarcasm.

The sound was brief, but it made him seem younger somehow. Less like the untouchable heir everyone feared and more like the boy who had lost his mother at sixteen and never learned how to grieve.

Her expression softened.

Then she noticed his eyes.

"Rudra?"

"Hm?"

"You look exhausted."

"So do you."

"That's because I actually have reasons to be exhausted."

He glanced at her.

"Of course. Your suffering has a superior résumé."

A small smile tugged at her lips before she could stop it.

He noticed.

And, for a moment, he forgot every reason he had to be careful.

He wanted to see that smile again.

Not because it made her beautiful—though it did—but because it reminded him that there was still a part of her untouched by the cruelty of their families.

Then her gaze dropped to his hands.

"Your fingers are shaking."

Rudra looked down.

He hadn't realized.

Meher gently touched his wrist.

"Are you all right?"

The irony was almost unbearable.

She was the one who had spent the last hour crying, and now she was worried about him.

"I'm fine," he said automatically.

She raised an eyebrow.

"That is the most ridiculous lie I've heard today."

He looked at her.

Then, slowly, he let out a breath.

"No," he admitted. "I'm not."

Meher didn't ask him to explain.

She simply kept her hand over his for a moment.

It was a small gesture.

But Rudra felt it more deeply than he wanted to admit.

---

A little later, Meher's eyes began to close.

She fought the exhaustion, determined not to fall asleep with Rudra sitting beside her.

He noticed.

"Go to sleep."

"I'm not sleepy."

"Of course not. Your eyes are closing because you're conducting an experiment."

She glared at him weakly.

"I can still throw you out."

"There's the Meher I know."

She tried to sit straighter, but a yawn betrayed her.

Rudra stood and picked up the blanket from the foot of the bed.

"Lie down. I'll leave once you're settled."

Meher hesitated.

"Will you?"

He paused.

"If you want me to."

She looked at the empty side of the room, then back at him.

For all her anger, the thought of being alone with the photograph and her father's notebook suddenly felt unbearable.

"Can you stay until I fall asleep?"

The question came out so quietly that she almost wished he hadn't heard it.

But he had.

Rudra's expression softened.

"Of course."

She lay down and pulled the blanket over herself. He placed a glass of water on the bedside table and moved a chair closer to the bed.

Meher watched him sit.

"Rudra?"

"Yes?"

"If I find out you knew something about my father's innocence and kept it from me, I will never forgive you."

He didn't look away.

"I understand."

"And if you hurt me on purpose—"

"I won't ask you to forgive that either."

She studied him for a long moment.

Then she turned onto her side.

"Good night."

"Good night, Meher."

A few minutes passed.

Her breathing slowly evened out, but just before sleep took her, she reached toward the edge of the bed.

Her fingers found his hand.

Rudra looked down.

She wasn't fully awake anymore. Perhaps she hadn't even realized what she was doing.

He could have moved away.

Instead, he stayed perfectly still, allowing her fingers to rest loosely around his.

And when she finally fell asleep, he remained beside her.

Watching over someone who had every reason not to trust him.

Someone whose tears had made him feel more helpless than any enemy ever could.

Someone he was beginning to fear he might lose before he had even admitted how much she mattered.

---

It was nearly midnight when Rudra finally stood.

He carefully eased his hand free without waking her and pulled the blanket a little higher over her shoulder.

Then he noticed the notebook on the floor.

He picked it up, intending to place it on the dressing table.

A folded paper slipped from between its pages.

He recognized the symbol immediately.

The circle divided by seven lines.

Rudra unfolded it.

There was a name written beneath the symbol.

NANDINI SINGH RATHORE.

Below it was another line.

The first vow was broken by the son.

Rudra's blood ran cold.

He read the sentence again.

Then he looked at Meher, sleeping peacefully for the first time that night.

She had no idea what the message meant.

No idea what he had promised his father seven years ago.

No idea why he had stayed silent about what happened in his mother's room.

Rudra folded the paper and slipped it into his pocket.

He had come to comfort Meher.

He had promised himself he would never let anyone hurt her again.

But now he was beginning to understand the cruelest part of the truth.

He might not be the person who had killed his mother.

Yet he had helped bury the secret that destroyed Meher's family.

And if she ever discovered what he had done, the woman who had fallen asleep holding his hand might never look at him the same way again.

Rudra looked at her one last time.

"I'm sorry," he whispered.

Meher didn't hear him.

And for the first time in seven years, Rudra Singh Rathore wished he could go back to the night everything changed—not to save himself, but to become the kind of man who would have told the truth.

To be continued…

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